Keep it personal;

Abracadabra.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 Y 9:46 PM

Oh dear god,

give me the strength I need to go through these obstacles.

Please help put me through the pain.

Im worried sick for baby and I.

Help us go through it.

Just fulfil my wish,please?

And babylove,

I don't know how else I can even define my love for you.

I know I've not been a good girlfriend,too pampered and spoilt,

but you never fail to sacrifice your happiness for mine.

You are the strength for my weakness and you showed me love when all I do is get mad.

I miss your hugs sayang,the hugs that would assure me everything is okay.

You're the greatest gift from God,that I can't deny.

Whatever happens,I promise I'll stand by you and stick with you through thick and thin.

I love you with all my heart.

:')

I'm just not in the mood to talk about my results for EOY.

I just can't wait to see the overall results for the whole year.

I did badly,I dare say.

I just wanna get it over with.

I'll accept whatever fate God has written in my book.

We all know we can never change fate right?

Besides,everything happens for a reason..

Biology is a dissapointment enough,plus all the other subjects.

I've flunked them all pretty badly,I dont know why.

It's not because of me having a bf,it has never been.

Maybe its because I've not put enough effort and God wanna give me a wake up call.

This is a lesson I shall learn and not mull over.

I know my mistakes now and last minute revisions don't work anymore.

I will give my ultimate best and prove everyone wrong because I know I can do it.

I wanna make my parents proud.

I hope I get to take my O' levels and get promoted,Insyaallah.

Im giving all my prayers for you baby.

I can't shed enough tears already.

And I'm touched that you cried when I cried.

I love you so much.

& I don't know why this event has made me wanna change.

I wanna change for the better.

I'm gonna start praying soon once baby starts teaching me.

See how much I've missed out and forgotten?

The last time I prayed was last year.

I totally neglected God.

Im sorry.

I wanna walk on a straight path,that leads me to you,

but I just can't help but go astray.

Oh god,

show me the light to your path.

I might be really quiet in school in the next few days okay,so please don't trigger my mood.

I'm really gonna be uber-sensitive to the maximum.

All I can do is pray.

PS:Miss Chew,please don't blame my baby for my failure in Chem.It's not his fault,honestly.Its just me..I've taken my studies too lightly.I've neglected them.You said I've been passing?No,you're wrong.I've never passed Chem.Even if I did,its by luck.So please,don't put the blame on my baby.Its me for myself.

I just feel like I've brought everyone down :'(

I need you baby,so bad :'((

Breaking dawn.